memorable fac night

i attended my fac night
at prescott hotel in kajang
at first i m not wiling to go
cz RM50!!!
after going there, very enjoy the "night"
i found tat it is better than the time in port dickson
although it is not even half a day
i can feel tat
the bond between me and my coursemate n fac-mate becomes closer

we take photo together
we perform a drama on the stage
we joke
we laugh
we r having fun
its really good

i ll cherish the good moment in my heart
4ever

p/s: i ll upload some photo afterwards :)

last week...

2-3/8
jz came back from the trip
port dickson
not bad
is a good chance to put al the things ang stress away
enjoy the moment there

4/8
today im busy
after the class
i rush to menara KLCC
cz i get the scholarship from tanjong
happy
but tired
d human resourse manager is strict
make my so sked
but i know this is corporate style
perhaps me ll become part of them in the future

feel like sardine in the komuter n LRT
i got d intuition tat i ll sick
running nose...body temperature is rising

5/8
i fall sick
somemore sore throat

6/8
today english class
got group discussion
i found tat i really bad
cz sometimes i got a very good idea or points
but cant convey it well
but konw tat they r(mayb) wrong
i oso dont know how to describe tat feeling
i start to think tat my english of proficiency is not good
i need to polish my english

7/8
i m going back to TI
to settle d scholarship documents
very happy
i thought i ll not back to hometown until mid-sem break
but life is uncertain
way back to TI
its rainy day
my cloth nearly al wet
cant go elsewhere
stay at puduraya 4 more than 2 hours
***
my father comes to the bus stop and fetch me
everything seems the same
jz like b4 im went to ukm
it is fun spending my time wit my family members
as i dun talk so much in ukm

8/8
another busy day
early in the morning
rush here and there
its hard to deal wit d documents
settle everything ady:)
***
its very meaningful day
8/8/08
i watch d olimpic opening ceremony
very good...

9/8
today i ll back to ukm again
i know the fun time ll end soon
n suffering ll begin
mentally-prepared is the only way
to cope wiit al this
***
545 arrive at ukm komuter
rush back to my hostel
cz my com night ll start at 6
(if not, i ll stay in TI until sunday)
im game leader
"syok sendiri" lo
everybody so 'cold'
frezzing
com night until 1am
tiring

10/8
wake up early in the morning
havin breakfast wit my coursemate in kajang
back to hostel
continue to sleep
evening go to library
do some revision
cz tomoro got quiz

11/8
quiz over ady
haha
not tough as i predicted
a good beginning
later got choir performance
4 convo..
hope can enjoy there

true feeling

when we proceed further
life becomes more complex as predicted
something mayb looks fine
but it actually not
other ppl may looks "tame"
but we can feel the wildness inside their heart
under this circumstances
we becomes 'fake'
as we try to pretend in watever we ll do
i wan to seek a way
to find the true feeling that belong to me before
i know my true feeling is waiting for me
at a place around me
because i know
the emptyness tat i feel now will not last long...

string--tight or loose??

yesterday night
i went 4 a movie sharing organized by Buddhist Fellowship(BF)
i really glad bz ppl there are so friendly
hav d sense of belonging
one of the part of the movie create a great impact in me..
a traditional musician said this:
"if the string is too tight,it ll tout;
if the string is too loose,it will not play"
its sound amazing
n i think this words is meaningful and this person full of wisdom..

sometimes
we juz like the string,too tight
sometimes
we also like the string,too loose
i think it is just nice to walk the middle way,
not too tight n too loose
perhaps the theory is easy to b understand
but practically
i found tat it is difficult to find a balance point btw both extreme

i stil remembered quite a long time ago i recieved a msg:
"it depends on u how u view 'stressed',
o u can take it as a 'desserts'"

haha..it is indeed a life lesson..
is the time for me to change..

making choice/s???

that day i went 4 an interview..
is about d chinese community teaching class
d interview went along quite smoothly
n the interviewer all r very friendly
BUT when come to this question
i really dunno how to answer it..
"IF tomoro is ur final exam,n the class is going on like usual,
n u can choose either 1,wat is ur choice???"
i really hate this type of question..
"i l choose according to my priority"
they show me a smilling face,
but i know
deep inside their heart, it's not
this make me think bout last time im a choir member( now oso)
my teacher alwayz want us to giv priority to tat club
i really dun like it

today i got 3 meetings on the same time
i really need to make my mind soon
tat day i attending choir practise until 10 something
back to hostel got JAKSA meeting until 12..
then go to tiong hwa club for college night's prog
i can feel tat the head of programmer had a little bit "no syiok"
cz im late...

life keep going on with making choice
i really hope tat i can make all d thing perfect
but experience told me i cant do so
im not a perfectionist
wat i want is i hope i can cater the need of all ppl
without creating the uneasy feeling in their heart
SORRY..
this is just wat can i do
for u

independent=loneliness??

after reading the words from a blog written by HL,i really hav lots of thing to say..

im really an independent guy..
everything here is gonna b alright
but when time flies,
i can feel im so lonely here...
i try to communicate wit others
but sometimes it seems i cant mix around wit them
different topic to chat
different thing to play
different thing to do
different opinion
different type of ppl
i became to be a dump boy
started to be isolated by others
but im trying to walk into their heart
juz i want others to walk into my heart,oso
so im now doing wat juz my friend said
"pretending" to b good wit them
sometimes it do really bad for me
cz i dont like that kind of feeling
i jz feel that i becomes lonely
BUT
beyond al this
i know that im growing now
growing to b an independent guy
i know i need to face al stuff that i really dont like it
i need to deal wit al sorts of situation that not belong to me before..

speechless
but i know i 'll come back soon
wit my stunning voice
n stand in front of u al..

busy..busy..busy..

almost 2 weeks here--ukm,bangi
life is too busy
everyday rush 4 lecture and those documents stuff
some more back college need to wash d clothes
but i know this is called the "real independent"
everything need to DIY
haha....
life become busy BUT interesting and full of challenging
Keep fighting,
Ya!!!

p/s: this is quite a nice view(DECTAR)..